The uncertainty of it all is maddening. we leave. we join.
I think of her every single day. every single hour.
But yet she’s no longer mine, lost in the void of life. I used to carry her in my heart afraid to let her unto the world because she was oh so precious. my angel. This is where I hid my worry, my pain, my sorrow, my anger. Then she became the source of these things…..why? why must the negative overcome the unbearable overflow of compassion I have for this woman. Why must I continue to scratch and claw to get her to even look in my direction. You love me dont you? dont you? At this point in my life I am strong, I am ready to conquer this earth with you. The little boy you knew before has gone and a king has replaced him. Why cant you see this….why dont you call for me when you are lonely at night resting your bones. why dont you wake to see my image to fill your soul for the day ahead. I miss you dearly, I miss you oh so much…..and nothing and I mean NOTHING will stop me from getting you back because this time…I will keep you as if my life is thine.